the night is cold and clear

10 minutes to halb elf.. it was a great day, at least i got the chance to shop with mum and dad..it is something which i have been longing for..everytime when i work i see one big family can shop together..how happy are they..i used to be like this, but no more..people are growing, you cant keep urself caught inside the cage for a long time..you got to grow no matter what..and you will start to think like a man..thats the hard truth..sometimes i wish i could always stay as a kid..no worries, no doubts..no nothing but joy and happiness all around me..u can do whatever you feel like doing..no one will blame you if you make a mistake..you will not have to be responsible for everything..for every words spoken out..for every action done..for every paths chosen..for the one you love..

it sounds emo..but it is not..it is just something i feel like writing about in this cold night..when i can still feel the breeze blowing through my face..the coldness it brings..it doesnt have emotion..it is emotionless..so empty..so true..i remember i like to feel the wind, when i was in form 5..just get the motorbike key in the middle of the night, i would go out without a helmet..and feel the wind blowing hard on my face..my hair is all under the wind's control..and i even like the way my hair look like after getting blown hard by the wind..it just feels so right..

but things change..pretty fast..i wasnt in f5 anymore..i wanted to be an adult..coz i hate being child all the time..i hate hiding my opinion or my view everytime i feel like talking but i didnt..i wanted to be an adult..thats what i thought i should be..mistakes and mistakes i made and i learn, in the end..i think i can adapt and change is all it needs to be a man..time flies, and it is another 3 years..when i got back, memories from the past will always appear in my mind..whenever i pass this road, the signboard, the traffic light i used to stop at after school, the shops, everything..everything reminds me of my past..which is part of me that cant be changed, forever..i might not be like what i was 3 years ago, but i can be a better person, i believe..this is the truth i am holding on..

strike me hard, wind.